Something has certainly shifted in me over the past month. I know why, but it has been interesting to sit back and watch it all in a way.
For the last 5 years, I have worked so hard to take the best care of my body in order for it to be the best home for a baby. And it wasn't until about a month ago, that this constant pressure to have the healthiest body possible lightened up in a big way. And now that I am on the outside looking in, I realize that even in my "healthy" ways, I was not necessarily always the healthiest. There actually is a point where being too healthy becomes not healthy at all.
When we shifted to this new process, adoption, I felt my body sort of relax. It was like it was saying to me, Finally, I get a break. It was craving so badly to just be able to live a little and not be so focused on every little thing that went into it.
Back in my worst bouts with my eating disorder, the constant focus was to be thin, to stay thin and to never be anything but thin. While those days are long gone, I realize now that the past years have only lead to another from of pressure.
After we lost our first baby and shortly before my second pregnancy, I started this blog. When we lost Josie, I was shattered and just couldn't pick up the pieces and move on in any way. I started writing as my form of therapy and I was also becoming more into the concept of "clean eating." I had lived so long on the low calorie, sugar free, chemical ridden diet that I wanted to detox and get rid of it all. And I wanted to do it to get myself to the best place possible. I cared less about the outside of me, but actually worried, or at least brought my focus more to the inside of me.
Now, this transition was not a bad thing by any means. I felt good, really good for the first time in my life and had energy I didn't know I was allowed to have. I was eating so much more of a variety of foods, and enjoying the foods I had sworn off for so long in my teens and twenties. And experimenting with new foods became my favorite past time. (And we now have all of these recipes to prove it!)
But as I sit here right now, I realize that I didn't cut myself enough slack. I didn't always 'live a little' when it came to the foods I ate because again, my body needed to be perfect. It was going to be a home and I needed it to be immaculate. While I wasn't necessarily restricting, I was also not really indulging. Or I was just so focused on having the right ingredients more often than not, that I didn't get outside of the box as much as I would have liked.
So here is the deal, being healthy also means not always being healthy. Clean eating means sometimes not eating clean at all. The balance will find you, if you just let go. But that's what has to happen first; you have to let go. You have to relax. You have to indulge. Trust me, it's for your health. And that is the WHOLE truth. xoxo
My original intention was to share a waffle recipe today, but then I realized this recipe was still sitting in my queue and well, frankly that's just not fair. I cannot believe I have waited so long to share this one with you all so please forgive me! No bake bites are my jam, and these rank really high up there with my all time favorite, my peanut butter oatmeal energy bites so that's a big deal!
These Blueberry Muffin Oat Bites pack in the protein and fiber you need and without all the processed ingredients that you can find in other snacks and granola bars at the grocery. Plus they are so easy to make. I LOVE my peanut butter bites, but I also know that I need to switch it up a bit and not do the same old thing all the time. These are the answer to just that for me. A touch of cinnamon, pure maple syrup, hearty oats--ok, now I am going to need to make these tonight!--so many good ingredients along with some superfood chia seeds.
The other thing that made me pretty excited about these little nuggets was that I was able to find some dried blueberries without sugar! That is almost unheard of but I promise they exist. When it comes to dried cranberries, I typically go with apple juice sweetened. I was able to find blueberries completely unsweetened by Bob's Red Mill as well as some that were also sweetened with apple juice. Just another way to stay away from the processed white stuff. But if all you have available are the ones sweetened with sugar, please don't beat yourself up. It's not like they are the easiest things to find. Remember, we are living a little today! Woo hoo, let's get crazy! Ha.
Whether you need an afternoon pick me up or an easy grab and go breakfast, these oat bites are a great new way to switch up your energy bite routine, if you are anything like me!
optional add ins
- shredded coconut
- chopped pecans or walnuts
- In a medium bowl, combine all ingredients and mix well to combine.
- Allow to chill for 10-15 minutes.
- Roll into bite sized balls and enjoy!